12 Weeks and 3 days

I want to sit here and say that all relationships are easy, however i would be lying. combining lives with another human is one of the most difficult things one will have to do, especially when one person has been married before and has photos that they never threw away of their ex wife. stumbling upon these can be indeed difficult however as hard as it is for me i can only imagine how much harder it is for him.

Here he is about to enter a new marriage and all he has around him are memories of a failed one. I honestly dont know how to make him feel better because honestly i cant make me feel better about it. sure he never threw them away because he just didnt want to deal with them but still when something is over its best to get rid of the things you no longer want am i correct?

On other news the baby still seems to be doing well. still eating and still beating around in there. some days i wish i could speed up the process so i can play with my little human and see what it looks like. i want to hold it and hug it. at the same time i know things are going to change big time once it is here. im excited that i have a job interview tomorrow. that means if i get the job i will have more money to buy my little one the things it needs.

12 Weeks and 2 days

On the 13th it was officially 12 weeks into my pregnancy and i have to admit it seems like it is flying by fast.I had my appointment that day and i heard the baby's heart beat for the first time. sure it sounds more like a washing machine than a heartbeat. its wonderful to know that my little person is growing big and that im not just becoming a fatty Mc fat fat.

Every appointment seems to go the same they take blood out and collect urine then probe me with a stick to see and hear baby's progress.my nurses are acting oddly and arent always the most sensitive women out there. but ill live women have been doing this for millions of years so i can handle it too.